I was thinking about the whole process of how my husband and I managed this particular decision, and I started to wonder, is this how God wants us to handle every decision in our lives?
The process began with a calling. Through surrendering our will to the Lord, we were able to hear and believe a calling from Him. We then began by praying; my husband and I have prayed about this task for as long as we've been married (I know, I know, a whopping 3 months! ha). We have been seeking the Lord's guidance in this area of our lives. We have been seeking counsel from those wiser than us. We have been seeking the good of each other throughout the process.
Side note: It has been fun to attempt something that because of the odds, we know that the only way that we will succeed is because the Lord moved in some magnificent way!
Now don't get me wrong, I am well aware of the fact that this could not end in "success". I am well aware that I could "fail" in this endeavor. However, in this particular case, I will not be thwarted. At least, I'll try not to be! I know that the Lord has plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me a hope and a future, and I will grasp tightly to this truth as I proceed, no matter the outcome. It has just been so cool to gain a new perspective on pursuing a goal in the way I think the Lord likes.
We cannot begin without praying hard to the One who can.
We cannot make it through the process without living in communion with the One who can.
We cannot succeed without the One who can.
We cannot take the glory, but give it to the One who can.
We must let go of control and let Him work. We know that the Lord could direct us differently than we thought because we are fully aware that we do not know how He works. It is just fun, yes FUN, to be able to know that this task is well beyond my reach. I'm relying solely on the strength and power of a HUGE God. I cannot wait to see how He will show up.
The verse that is on my heart through this waiting period is:
Hebrews 11:1 - "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."
I'm not claiming to have a great faith by any means, but I know that I am sure of what I hope for in this circumstance and I am certain that the One I cannot see is powerful enough to make it happen.
[Further reading if you're into that type of thing:]
I found a commentary when I looked up Hebrews 11:1 and I found it really interesting and I hope that one day you'll get the chance to experience what this is talking about:
The definition of faith given in this verse, and exemplified in the various instances following, undoubtedly includes justifying faith, but not directly as justifying. For faith justifies only as it refers to, and depends on, Christ. But here is no mention of him as the object of faith; and in several of the instances that follow, no notice is taken of him or his salvation, but only of temporal blessings obtained by faith. And yet they may all be considered as evidences of the power of justifying faith in Christ, and of its extensive exercise in a course of steady obedience amidst difficulties and dangers of every kind. Now faith is the subsistence of things hoped for, the evidence or conviction of things not seen - Things hoped for are not so extensive as things not seen. The former are only things future and joyful to us ; the latter are either future, past, or present, and those either good or evil, whether to us or others. The subsistence of things hoped for - Giving a kind of present subsistence to the good things which God has promised: the divine supernatural evidence exhibited to, the conviction hereby produced in, a believer of things not seen, whether past, future, or spiritual; particularly of God and the things of God.
LOTS to be learned from that little excerpt, but I know the Lord will show me (and you) more if I (we) seek after it.