This, I am well aware, is a blessing! I would be lying if I said that the stress of not having a steady income was not there, but we are genuinely taking this season as a time to get closer together, learn/do things we did not think we ever had time for before, and rely FULLY on our Lord.
For those of you who do not know, as a person, I lean towards worrying about the appearance of my life. I want all of it to look "pulled-together" and organized. I want to seem on top of things. I like pretty packages with a bow (figuratively and literally). Harris and I had a heart-to-heart recently where he pulled me back to a reality that I struggle to remain in. It does not matter "what it looks like". If things are not perfectly (whatever that means) aligned, looking cute and fun and always awesome, it is okay.
Originally I envisioned coming to Lynchburg, buying a cute little "starter" house, instantly finding a nice career job, and topping it all off with a white picket fence and a dog in the yard. I wish I was kidding. The Lord designed me to love beautiful things. He also set eternity in my heart, so I know that ultimately my goals in life are not to obtain "worldly" things. Where will they go? Where will that nice picture of "the good life" go when all is said and done? Harris, being the amazing leader that he is, kindly reminded me that if he and I are loving Jesus firstly, loving each other secondly, then we will be perfectly happy if we are eating ramen noodles on the floor of our apartment by candlelight.
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" - Matthew 6:25-27I have read this verse many times, but it is particularly special to me in this season. Living simply is turning out to be wonderful. We have had to become very creative with things, but it has personally stretched me and it has only been two weeks!
There is a part after verse 27 that goes on to say, "So do not worry saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them." My favorite part is when it says, "your heavenly Father knows that you need them." It is so personal. God knows how He created me to be. He knows my weakness is in trying to obtain praise from man and in enjoying worldly things. He knows more so, however, that my soul cries out to please Him and bring glory to Him. The Lord caters to how He created me and who He is transforming me to be and combines the two to create this peace-filled season that I am in that is filled simultaneously with simplicity and fullness.