Well, I started my brand new job this week and I just finished my first week. How is it? Great! The people I work with are great, the environment I work in is great, and I'm .. Well.. I'm not so great yet. This is a totally new department for me and a completely new area of work. Needless to say, the learning curve for my new job is bigger than any other I have had in my employment past. On the one hand, this is awesome! I'm in a new and challenging position that will push me to work hard and achieve more and I am grateful! On the other hand, I have definitely struggled with the "a-word" this week. The "a-word" is adequacy.
I like to feel needed. I like to feel like I'm making a difference. I like to be someone who rises up to challenges and even excels at anything thrown at her. I'd venture to say we all do.
In my new job I'm just a baby. Day 5 and I'm not indispensable, go figure. Something inside me is programmed to work hard until I am! Well, while I was telling a friend of mine how useless I felt while I'm in the learning/training stages of my job, she stopped me wisely and said, "you might not be capable of doing the job.."
What!!? How dare she interrupt my whine-fest and tell me I'm right! I am a hard worker and I can do this, I am not incapable or inadequate!
She then said, "but seriously, you are capable, but even if you aren't, God is! He gave you this job."
It is true. Even if I have a lot to learn, I know that the one who provided the job in the first place is the one who will equip me to do it well, even if that seems like a long road ahead from now. Our Pastor Bill told Harris once, "God doesn't call the equipped, He equips the ones He calls."
I'm thankful that I know God will give me the tools to do my job well. He has me here for a reason and I will continue to work hard knowing I am adequate and called. Thank you, Lord!