Wednesday, April 30, 2014

out of control.

Well, our much anticipated announcement was revealed on Easter weekend... we are parents!!

This has been such a beautiful experience already. [and that's not just because I have not been sick one single day since I found out he/she was in there - sorry other mamas] Harris and I prayed continually that the Lord would bless us with a child, and in His timing, He did! Our sweet little sour patch kid (nickname provided by sister-in-law) is healthy, growing, and a complete gift.

The biggest and most pronounced of the lessons I am learning as my adventure of motherhood begins is that I am completely out of control. Bare with me, experienced ones, as I discover this new world.

I have done nothing [outside praying and heeding the suggested precautions] to protect or provide for this little one. I am simply here. Me. The fact that he/she is in my body and thriving is literally the Lord's active work and blessing each day. I am constantly amazed.

The good and bad news about this is that my inability to control will continue when this baby is outside of my body and in this world. I will have no power to ultimately protect the baby from the sins of the world. I will have no power to ultimately provide for the baby's every need. God is only able to do so by His strength and by His provision. I'll be a glad and eager participant, in whatever way He would allow me to, but from the moment this baby was conceived, I have not had control.

The best news, however, comes from His Word:
"But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body."  -Philippians 3:20-21

Fortunately, this world is neither my, nor my little one's home. Our citizenship is in heaven. Until then, I have to rely on the Lord to provide for my needs and those of this life He has entrusted to me. I am completely out of control and completely humbled.

We look forward to sharing this journey with friends and family and continually pointing upward.
To Him be the glory!


  1. Taylor, this was a beautiful post. I love your blog! It's always thought-provoking, and the way you reveal your heart through your writing is a blessing to me. I'm looking forward to following your journey into motherhood :)

    1. Thanks so much, Julia! We are so excited; I cannot wait to follow in the footsteps of mothers like you who have set such a great example!

  2. Ryan and I are so excited for y'all! And it's kind of nice to know that we can't control anything. :)

    1. Thank you! Yes, I am thankful for that.. SO glad it's not up to this girl.