Dear little one,
When I first learned of you late one July night, I felt extreme excitement and such fortune to get the opportunity to be in your life. I brought your dad in on the excitement the following morning on his birthday - and the news of you being in our family brought tears to his eyes. As I sit here quietly the night before we learn whether you are a boy or a girl, I find myself reflecting on why this piece of information about you feels so significant to me as your mama.
Right now I feel a tender connection with you that is simply due to the fact that you belong to us. There is something about loving someone simply because they're yours.
What I think I'm anticipating in finding out your sex is the discovery of a piece of you that is a huge part of your identity. Your maleness or your femaleness matters so much - whether you are a boy or a girl makes a difference in the world and in our lives. It is the once piece of information we can learn about this early that truly informs us about you. We can't fully see you, hear you, or touch you right now, so knowing you in this way is how we can connect and identify with who you are. Manhood and womanhood are the beautiful handiwork of our Creator, and we get to enter into that with you before you're even here!
As of now we have a boy name selected and a girl name selected. The moment we discover which you are, you will be given your name. We will call your name. We will pray your name. We will dream for your name. We will know your name.
This sweet season of knowing you are with us but not knowing your name is hours from being over, and it just feels bitter sweet in that you're already growing so fast, but we also cannot wait to meet you!
Until then baby,